SWIMMING IN THE MUD:
Navigating Life’s Ups and Downs Without Drowning
Welcome! Quoted directly below is my very first post on SWIMMING IN THE MUD from October 2011. It has been significantly updated as of August 2013. The first 10 or so comments from my kind readers on this page are in response to the first post:
“We have moments of clarity. We have moments of confusion. No matter who you are, how good your life seems, everyone has or will have their turn at swimming in the mud.
The trick with swimming in the mud is kinda simple… whatever you do, don’t stop swimming. The moment you stop, you’re going under. And if you think it’s tough making your way on the murky surface, it’s even worse finding your way if you allow yourself to slip under even once. This much I know, whatever you do… keep swimming.
As for me, I’m working on my backstroke.
Catch up with you soon.”
From the beginning and throughout almost two years of sharing on this blog, I thought of “swimming in the mud” in the struggling sense. It has been a visceral metaphor for my frame of mind through a ten-year span of particularly challenging life issues concerning myself and/or those I loved, which included:
Death; Tragedy (9/11); Mental Illness (PTSD, Anxiety Disorders, Alcoholism, Severe Depression); Chronic Physical Illness (including Organ Transplant); Divorce; the repercussions of Unresolved Childhood Trauma; the threat of Job Loss; Long-Term Unemployment; Financial Setbacks and Uncertainty Nearing Retirement; Moving Away from Family and Friends (Isolation); Familial Rifts; Loss of Identity; striving to Align Vocation with Life Purpose.
I’ve been on a journey of self awareness since my childhood and yet sometimes still don’t acknowledge my successes. It is only as of August 2013 that I clearly surfaced and saw that the “mud” is also healing . . . that I was making significant progress. That is when the duality of “swimming in the mud” finally resonated. Was it by chance I started with a murky metaphor for my blog name that would suit me well into the healing phase as well? I don’t think so. Serendipity and synchronicity have had a stronger presence in my life than chance. I truly believe that is so because I am heading in a healing direction. I am emotionally evolving and spiritually growing.
My blog revolves around my life experiences. It touches on those topics that deeply affect me and I always make a concerted effort to relate that to you, my readers, on a universal level. I strongly believe in striking a balance in life, so amongst the difficult topics are those of a more inspirational nature, including:
Love; Hope; Connection to Nature; Connection to the Universe; Serendipity; Gratitude; Connection to Self; Connection to Others; Spiritual Growth; Emotional Evolution; Awareness; Healing; Forgiveness; Acceptance; Being Present; Staying Positive; Humor; Fueling Creativity; Playing.
I expect that I will at times struggle in the mud and at other times play in the mud, but now I am comforted in knowing that it all occupies the same space. It is all a part of me and as long as I am aware that it is within my control to simply view my situations in an opposite light, I will find the peace inside me that I long for. I endeavor to share these struggles and inspiration with you so that you too may find peace.